An Extravagant Gift
When we originally began thinking about the adoption journey to China we knew we would not be able to afford to bring all 4 children with us. I had a peace about it and knew that we would figure out a plan for them while we were gone. We didn't know what that plan was going to be exactly, but we trusted God would provide. We knew it would be hard to be apart for 2 whole weeks, but the sacrifice would be worth it. However, God had a plan that we could not even begin to imagine! Someone wanted to provide the funds to enable us to bring all 4 of our children plus someone to help us along the way. What?? We couldn't believe it. Our first reaction was...maybe they just want to help by loaning us the money. We knew that we could not do that because we had already taken a loan out for the adoption itself. So... a couple of weeks went by and we thought...what a nice offer, but we just can't. Then we were told that it was not a loan, but a gift. What?? How could that be? For some reason, I struggled with accepting such a gracious gift. I realized I do it all the time to my heavenly Father. He has offered such an extravagant gift...a free gift of salvation. God had sent His one and only Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for my sins and there was nothing I had to do in return...it was finished at the cross. Eternal life given to me and to all who believe. It didn't depend on my past sins, my current sins or my future sins. I was bought with the blood of Jesus and all He wanted for me was to repent and believe. And so often I make it so much more complicated. I forget and want to "do" something so I can earn His favor. As if there is anything I could do to deserve such a gift. I believe this is how I reacted to this gracious gift being offered to our family. I began to think that I can't accept this gift. I don't deserve this gift. Does this person know that I have not been a perfect steward of the money that God has blessed us with? Does this person know that we have made financial mistakes and if they knew would they still be willing to provide this gift? Well...after much prayer and discernment (and a little help from sweet friends) we have decided that God has provided this opportunity through this person and that it is not all about me, but maybe God is using this for something else. Bigger than I know. Maybe my kids are supposed to be there...maybe Lily is supposed to meet her family altogether. I don't want to guess God's ultimate plan as to why we have been blessed by this gift (as I love to do sometimes), but just accept and praise Him for He deserves all the glory forever and ever. So with that...we are happy to say that we will be going together as a family to bring Lily home. We are humbled by this extravagant gift and we will forever pray for blessing over our dear sister or brother in Christ who has wanted to remain anonymous. If you read this...Thank you for so graciously being a part of our adoption journey.